Stand in the rain

This is a song by Superchick...This song I can really relate too I have gone through some pretty hard times in my life. Through everyone of the hard times I faced I remember to Stay Strong even when I was at my weakest point. I now that I will be faced with many more hard times I just have to remember to stay Strong through everything.

She never slows down

She doesn`t know why but,

She knows that when

She`s all alone, it feels

Like its all, coming down

She wont turn around

The shadows are long

And she fears if she cries

The first tears will not stop

Raining down

So stand in the rain

Stand your ground

Stand up when its all crashing down

You stand through the pain

You wont drown

And one day whats lost can be found

You stand in the rain

She wont make a sound

Alone in this fight with herself

And the fears whispering

If she stands, she`ll fall down

She wants to be found

The only way out is through

Everything shes running from

Wants to give up and lie down

So stand in the rain

Stand your ground

Stand up when its all crashing down¸

You stand through the pain

You wont drown

And one day whats lost can be found

You stand in the rain

Day 1 of High School...

Alright so my first day was awful taking the bus was OK i guess the kids that go on my bus are a little weird. They swear all the time they talk about drugs and sex all the time...I have never been around people like this...The school is OK i guess people dont care who`s in the hallways! They will just push you out of there way and not even say sorry! This school is pretty big compared to my old school! The teachers are nice but not as nice as the PHAS teachers. The kids are OK some are weird but there are some nice kids there...I feel alittle out of place there right now most of the grade 10 girls have been going there since Jr high so they all know each other and have groups so that leaves the new kids feeling out of place and alone. Some of the girls are stuck up and don't want anything to do with you!!

It is going to take me a while to get used to everything this is a huge change for me and well i`m not taking so good right now I had Bad Anxiety chest pains today my neck and shoulders where so sore and tight!! I had a headache most of the day...I can home so tired it was crazy!!

The whole day all i wanted to do was go home i didn't want to be there i just wanted to be home away from everyone and all the stress!!

I`m doing OK right now but i know i will have another bad night!! woke up to a panic attack last night that's how bad my anxiety was it was awful i was gasping for air and crying because it felt like i was going to die!!

I take stuff for my anxiety but it`s not working right now so maybe i need to up the dose i guess i will talk to my Dr next week because i have an appt so i will see what she say`s

I didn't get any homework today so that was a blessing!!! but I'm sure tomorrow i will get some we will be starting everything tomorrow.

Well i`m pretty tired so i better go to bed now!!