Day 1 of High School...

Alright so my first day was awful taking the bus was OK i guess the kids that go on my bus are a little weird. They swear all the time they talk about drugs and sex all the time...I have never been around people like this...The school is OK i guess people dont care who`s in the hallways! They will just push you out of there way and not even say sorry! This school is pretty big compared to my old school! The teachers are nice but not as nice as the PHAS teachers. The kids are OK some are weird but there are some nice kids there...I feel alittle out of place there right now most of the grade 10 girls have been going there since Jr high so they all know each other and have groups so that leaves the new kids feeling out of place and alone. Some of the girls are stuck up and don't want anything to do with you!!

It is going to take me a while to get used to everything this is a huge change for me and well i`m not taking so good right now I had Bad Anxiety chest pains today my neck and shoulders where so sore and tight!! I had a headache most of the day...I can home so tired it was crazy!!

The whole day all i wanted to do was go home i didn't want to be there i just wanted to be home away from everyone and all the stress!!

I`m doing OK right now but i know i will have another bad night!! woke up to a panic attack last night that's how bad my anxiety was it was awful i was gasping for air and crying because it felt like i was going to die!!

I take stuff for my anxiety but it`s not working right now so maybe i need to up the dose i guess i will talk to my Dr next week because i have an appt so i will see what she say`s

I didn't get any homework today so that was a blessing!!! but I'm sure tomorrow i will get some we will be starting everything tomorrow.

Well i`m pretty tired so i better go to bed now!!