Sunday, August 29, 2010

Dear Jaden

Dear Jaden,
I miss you so much it's crazy! My heart still feels empty it's like a big hole that will never heal. The first day I met you I fell in love with you I couldn't help but to love you. I miss your big beautiful eye lashes I miss the way you said my name I just miss everything about you. I spent every Wednesday with you I loved babysitting you. I will always remember the times we played hockey all night long. I will always remember the times I read water the farting dog to you. I held you when you where sick I hugged you when you where sad I prayed with you before you went to sleep at night I held you tight when you woke up from a bad dream And i held your hand in the car the day you left. I loved to hear you sing in the car to all your favorite songs. You always called me little tiff you always loved when i had a sleepover with you. Jaden the day you left broke my heart I stayed strong for you on that day I didn't cry because I didn't want you to cry. When you jumped into my arms and Said I Love You Little Tiff Goodbye my heart just broke when i got into the car and looked back at you waving the wall of tears I held back just broke down. I cried with shay we left so lost without you. knowing that I will never see my little Jaden grow up killed me I tried to pull myself together before we got to west Edmonton mall my eyes where red from crying my face was puffy. I spent the night at devin and Tiff's house I went to bed with shay we cried again shay fell asleep but i couldn't so i walked into Jadens room and sat on the floor beside his bed. I fell asleep beside his bed tiff came in and woke me up and said that I could sleep in his bed so i did i went back to sleep later that night I woke up and heard tiff crying I started crying again. when Jaden left it felt like he died because we will never see him again and we lost someone we truly loved. i miss that kid everyday I can't believe he is already 6 years old when I met him he was only 4 years old. He will always be in my heart forever & always i Love You Jaden!!! i miss you so Much it hurts!!!

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